okay, seriously I have no idea how and what to feel right now. just feel really tired.. haven't really recovered.(not from shock, from flu). results were finally out yesterday. good thing was, many of my friends did relatively well.. bad thing was, all of them but me did well.. i shouldn't say i did really bad but seriously i didn't expect myself to get like 15? when i first set my eyes on my results slip, i was quite happy though, at first, knowing that i managed to get an A2 for Eng! the next thing i did was to skip to the last subj--chinese. no improvement.. so much for re-studying those freaking shou3 ce4s. then i was stunned. i didn't know how to start calculating my l1r5. hui tian did it for me. the moment of truth man!! i just couldnt take it and broke into tears. i didnt know why i cried also. i guess i was super disappointed in myself? i got A2 for both A and E math, which was horrible.. those were the subjs which were deemed better. and what i feel was that i should be getting ones. and that's about all!! the rest,(phy,chem,geog,comb humans), were threes!! all in all a total freak out man!

for that moment i wished i could re-take the entire exam. maybe i shouldn't have gone to collect the results. was still running a fever then. my parents were saying that if i were unable to go, i can call them and they will get it for me. but anw, didn't want to trouble them since they were alr in the office. tried to get up from bed and hurried down but still, late :[

i realised that every year after cny i would always fall sick. last year i had high fever at ard this period of time. now, the same thing happened again. i just woke up with a bad headache, and all of a sudden, fever! then during the day it went up to a high 40. the feeling i got was like, damn cold? but in a way, i was also burning. wonder how that works. my head and the back of my eyes were like damn pain.. and i felt really giddy. by the time my parents came home to bring me to the doc, all clinics were closed! and i actually survived with some tablets from last visit to doc and 'lemsip'!!! and also, my dear sister took care of me when she came back from sch that day! though sometimes she can be v irritating.. she is actually v caring esp. when i'm sick/injured.

i went to hazel's hse to bai nian just now.. today's the second last day of cny! though we can't be in the same college, i'm sure we will keep in touch!! esp. since we live so near to each other... hehe... for yesterday, thank u nic and aud for lending me tissue paper..and kass and hui tian.. thats all.. yay dana and i are goin to write letters to thank our teachers... to tell them we really appreciate their efforts! errrrr... i'm like going on and on?? blog another time.. hazel has a new blog.. v cute.. :] oh yar, im not upset alr.. i must learn how to not tear so easily. hee..